When i was a child i use to think how beautiful the world is, bcoz i was told that God's put in His unconditional love to make everything so beautiful, the sky ,the river , the mountains, nature all together, each one of us humans.
But as time passed by and i grew, i wondered why the sky doesn't look so blue, why the river does'nt make the beautiful sound anymore, why the mountains don't look the way they use to before,why humans have become so selfish and so cold, i felt a strange numbness in my heart and i realised the empty space had made me cold too.
I cant look at God's creation the way i use to before,bcoz the love i once had in me is there no more. A child's love is unconditional and can find love in anything God's created but when i grew i moulded myself as the society wanted me to, as the people around me wanted me to, some told me to believe in God and some who lost faith in God, told me that Gods just an imagination but while i was growing, i cudnt let go of one thing, one feeling , the feeling of love. And i fell in love, with someone who i loved unconditionally, he said he loved me too but now i ask myself a question i should've asked my self when i fell in love, that was the love even true- if not unconditional, was it even real when we were together.
I lived a lie for so long, he's moved on but I'm still caught up in a dilemma - do i hold on to my childish desire of being loved, of loving someone one day or do i let go of this last feeling which keeps me in touch with my innocence and that's why i wonder IS LOVE FOR REAL OR JUST AN IMAGINATION!!!
